Thursday, July 25, 2013

Train away

"As the train passes, so thus my thoughts speeds away from me."

In a different view, it is not I that paces quickly to catch the next train and load off the last batch of passengers from the north. Instead of dragging my feet and making my way sandwiched to the crowd, I took time to line up, in a usual behavior, because some is running late/out-of-tine to their next destination/appointment. As I swipe my card entering the train station, I brisked in a normal way, not too fast, not too slow. Enough for other people to align with me, take over the line I'm passing, or follow behind me.

My mind wandered as took a step down the stairs. On I looked for a bench I could sit. There is still lots of time. I will just sit for a while and watch the passengers alight the train, run to the stairs as they inched the swiping machine or pave their way in the train to find a comfortable seat, a hand rail or pole if they will stand, or a back support, somewhere where other passengers would not disturb their business by passing through them while alighting to the next stations.

Anyway, I rode the third train. I sat for not too long as I planned myself to be. There are times I just hated waiting. I alighted on my stop. I know there are only more or less 90 minutes when you swipe your card that you could stay in a station/train ride before the card will be invalidated if you do not exit a station for the time allotted within. There, as I said, I stepped of the train. I sat again for some minutes on a yellow bench. I took out my notebook and pen, and wrote.

The cold gushing air whispers on my ears and tiny droplets lands off my skin. A rain will come. I remained seated for a while, maximizing the time allotted for my card. Minutes passed, I exit the station. 

Monday, July 22, 2013

Have you heard?

"When you shrug at the thought, "This time, last year." Enlightens you and continue today."

"A whole I give, not a portion."

"Maybe what's wrong is not asking but if I ask won't it sound demanding? Little things do me happy. I want to be understood, no side comments"

"I would rather know but I do not want to remember what hurts."

"I've realized I love knowing the details. At times I persuade to know, other times it will just come, some times I let it go."

A bunch of quotes. Those were my thoughts which I posted on my twitter account, @mariebiskwet.

Sunday, July 14, 2013


Do you remember my Batangas getaway, if not check it HERE. All the time I was there with a new friend, we were shooting BJ's short film. Here's the trailer.

I remembered, we started shooting first for the market scenes, we have a camera and people were looking, especially to me, asking, "May shooting?" Eh I was kind of in a natural make-up, maganda (parang artista). People were astounded by my beauty. Chos! Kidding!

And after almost 2 months. The short film is up. Comment your reactions or tweet me @mariebiskwet, @TheBukoJoe. Thank you!

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Giving Up

I'm sure everyone of us has their favorite verse on every song they knew or absorbed whenever the emotional self is alive and kicking. At times I may go to the famous, there are also times I dig deeper to less seen lyrics.
I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got, yeah, we got a lot at stake
Giving up, mostly, is associated in a relationship. "Until when will you be dumb to realize that the other does not love you anymore and you are still messing with your life when in fact you should be having your happier self back?" is the most common question. Would you give up that small instance, that you two had a small fight? Would you give up easily, you will not even try again to see if the heart had softened already?

Are you the kind of person who gives up without knowing the reasons why, not even hearing the person out? So many famous quotations and principles presents itself when we are on these intense ramification and battling of our emotions, choosing the hardest, simplest. Still, it boils down on you. The last laugh is on to you.

Before anything else, try to calm yourself down. Think about it. Admit that you have done some mistake and so does the other. On these circumstance, if the other is so hard-headed and all angry, relax. Don't let the two of you become thunder and volcano. Well, you can, if after you are the sweetest couple, friends, again. Again, stay calm. Some things may be better left unsaid. Choose your reasons, and words carefully. We don't want another battle here again. Sort. And compromise. After all the admittance, I bet so sure, that you learned something from each other.

Every feeling of giving up gives another reason for chances, to rebuild, to retain, to love more, trust more, and believe more. That is the positive side. In every argument or fight, one has been to, don't give up. Don't give up on the person. On these occasion, you can see what your partner is going through. In the most vulnerable state of the most not understanding situation, we let our guards down that what we only wanted is to cry and be the weak person beside the one we love.

A bit of silence with your presence (and understanding even though you are bombarded why he/she does not talk to you for awhile) is what one could ask for. Hold hands. Hug. Kiss. The person will come to its being again, alive and loving you.